Gracious Goes the Ghost of Kiki

In August of 2012, we found out that Kiki had terminal heart and liver problems and was given six months to live.  (Read the post here).  She defied the prognosis and lived for nearly two more years.  It is with a very sad and heavy heart that we announce her  passing May 29th, 2014, at 2:35 pm.

Below I wrote a letter to her, to thank her, to honor her, to say goodbye.  Please feel free to leave a comment; we know she touched so many hearts.

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Darling Kiki,

When I met you, we were both a bit of a mess.  You were almost four, the equivalent of twenty seven-ish in people years—the same age as me.  Your parents had just separated, and you were staying at your grandma’s house with your newly minted single mother.  I lived in the guesthouse out back, which meant you and I shared a common yard.

One day I came home from work and found you lying in the plant beds out back, big brown eyes sadly looking up from a  large puff of downy soft, black fur.  Clearly, you were moping.

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You had been banished from the house for acting out (something about “vengeance-peeing,” a weapon you held close to your heart for many years to come).  I, too, was struggling with where I fit in this world, but I had found more constructive outlets for my dark and lonely moods. And, yet, despite that I had been clean for a year and a half, and that I had all the trappings of a stable life, I still felt vacant—as if I were only a silhouette of who I might become.

I had unwound the tangled ball of childhood pain and teased out the drug addiction and resentment that had crippled my start. The threads of adulthood were neatly laid out before me, but I didn’t know what kind of life I wanted to weave.  My sober life in the South Bay, although much more ample than my life as a heroin addict, felt small and constrained.

I walked into the front house and found your leash.  You perked up at the promise of escape, and we took off down the hill towards the woodchip path that paralleled the beach.  We ran along the trail beneath a canopy of eucalyptus and, after a while, I said, “If you promise not to run away, I’ll let you run free, okay?” I unclasped your lead, and you sprang forward as fast as you could. You bounced and bounded in long, erratic laps around me for miles, but true to our pact, you stayed in sight.

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Running with you—blood hot in my ears, sweat dripping off my head—I remembered riding my bike through the neighborhood with my childhood dog, Cubbie.  She was a half Chow, half Retriever mix, similar to you.  With a goofy smile forcing its way across my face, I felt the same essence of who I was then: simply, a girl playing with her dog outside.

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Oh, the places we’ll go! I wanted to whoop and yell. I was inspired by the same energetic potential—a wild mix of freedom and connection—that we humans feel when we’re too young to know restraint.  Joy, pure magical joy, is what it was, something I hadn’t felt in so long.

And then it came to me, a moment of truth: I had an irrefutable feeling of wanting you by my side forever, and I knew I had to honor it—without wavering.

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Throughout our years together, I learned to make more authentic choices that continue to inspire and bring me immense joy, most notably of which were falling in love with your daddy, becoming a nomad, and having a baby.  But, I think the decision to adopt you—making that commitment to love you with abandon and provide for your needs until the end—was the slip knot from which I knit the fabric of my new life.  I didn’t know it at the time, but looking back I realize it was one of my first significant acts of self-love.  In other words, caring for you—giving you healthy food, safe shelter, fun exercise and tons of affection for the past eleven years—was inadvertently me taking care of me, too. From you, I learned that I could show up for my loved ones—for myself—for life.

And that’s how it works—the crazy, karmic reciprocity of loving relationships. The more we risk, the braver we become, and the more we are able to give and receive love.  In turn, our silhouettes fill in; we deepen and expand into three-dimensional, whole selves, colored and defined by all that love.

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But, of course, you always knew that, sweet girl.  What’s more amazing is that you taught the lesson to so many of us  people.

When we arrived to Buenos Aires a little over a week ago, I immediately took you on a walk to let you stretch your legs and go potty. I’ve always loved walking with you, watching your tail flounce with each bouncy step.  I especially loved watching people’s reaction to you; you could (and did) make armed guards at narco check points say “Awwww, que raza es tu perro?.” In fact, in every country we’ve been in, the number one question we were asked is what breed of dog you were, to which we replied, “one of a kind.”  People just wanted to be near you, touch your kind face, and pet your soft, fluffy fur; I can’t even begin to count how many strangers have taken your picture.

This time, however, you walked painfully slow, stopping every few steps to take a break, and it struck me for the first time that the end was near.  The next day you lost control of your bowels and fell like a deer on ice when you tried to pee.  You stopped eating your food, so I fed you filet mignon and pate (Oh, you always had expensive taste Miss Kiki! I’ve never met a dog who enjoyed Roquefort more than you). A day later, you could no longer stand up on your own; I had to prop you up on your paws so you could toddle a few steps or, more often, just pick you up and carry you outside.  A week went by with no improvement. I cleaned you,  your bed, my clothes, the patio and the floors every day—and, honestly, I didn’t mind so much.  The part that hurt me was when you tripped over your hind feet and couldn’t get up again; when I realized that  you no longer had the strength to sniff around; when you looked lost and confused in the living room, feet away from where I stood.

I didn’t want you to lose your dignity.  I didn’t want the world to withhold its pleasure. I didn’t want you to forget the safety of my love.

The 29th of May was the hardest day of my life.  The veterinarian came to the house to help us let you go.  I didn’t want to, not even a little.  I wanted to wail during every second of your passing, and maybe I did at times, but mostly I tried to just be present for you.  Your dad and I were by your side. You were happy, happier than we’d seen you in so long.  You smiled your toothy grin—god I loved those little teeth!—and let your spotted tongue loll out of your mouth as I held you in my arms, caressed your ears, and scratched under  your chin.

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The vet gave you something to calm you, and I stroked your face until you fell asleep with your head on my lap.  You were smiling.  Then, she started an IV, and I lied on the ground and pressed my body to yours, my hand on your heart, my face in your mane, breathing you in.  Your giant heart beat strong against my hand until it faded and didn’t anymore. You died so peacefully.

I felt your presence lift and vanish, and I thought, how gracious you are, my love. 

I wish I could do it all again. Your whole life, I want it again. I want to live every moment of sweet, wonderful you, again.

And maybe I will.

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At the beginning of my favorite book, The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera, he discusses Nietzsche’s concept of eternal recurrence.  Eternal recurrence, which dates far back in the Ancient East, posits that the universe has been recurring, and will continue to recur, in a self-similar form an infinite number of times across infinite time or space.  In plain words, it means we will relive every moment of our life again and again, eternally.  If this is true, then everything we do is weighted with permanence, which is different than what we humans normally feel: the unbearable levity of time passing into nothingness—the forward march of transience.

I feared that I’d lose myself in losing you—that, I, too, would vanish in your impermanence. My love for you has been a giant pillar holding up who I am, the foundation of everything I built.  I worried that I’d unravel or want to erase myself like I did after Spencer died. But it’s not that way.  Although I lost you, my love for you lives on—eternally recurring, with weight and meaning.  It will define the way I love, and therefore who I am, for the rest of my life.

I am you.  And you are me.  You are in everything I do, my darling Kiki.

And now the fabric of my life is big and strong and warm, woven from your love and memories, and I will wrap myself up in it to comfort me through your loss.

Thank you for loving us.  Thank you  for sharing your life with us.  Thank you for  letting us be there to let you go.

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Forever yours,

Mama, Daddy, and Soleil

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 Kiki on the Oregon coast

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Kiki at Bishop, California

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Kiki on the  Rogue river

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Kiki on the Deschutes River

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Kiki in Mexico

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Kiki in Tequila, Mexico

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Kiki in Belize

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Kiki in Guatemala

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Kiki in El Salvador

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Kiki in Nicaragua

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We love you, Kiki. We always will. Rest in peace, sweet girl.

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Comments

  1. A beautiful life expressed in beautiful words. My condolences to all of you on Kiki’s passing.

  2. Stevie my dear…my heart goes out to you, Soleil and my son. Your life and travels with Miss Kiki has touched me deeply and the memory will be with me forever.
    Love you,
    Sr

  3. Martyn, Katie, George, Rosie, Lola and Riley says:

    Hi Stevie,

    What a lovely tribute, it moved me very much. My that old girl lived some!
    We loved Kiki so much during her stays with us she became part of our family also. Be assured her last few weeks with us when she had started to ail were good ones. She certainly took no crap from the young uns when they tried it on and she let them know who was boss. Let me admit that we also fed her pate as we figured “what the hell let her have some pleasure in life” and that wagging tail said it all. She lapped it up!

    Her work here is certainly done, as a centred loving Mum you are the bedrock of a great family and you all continue to fly. Best wishes to you all, and I hope our paths cross again very soon (Florianopolis?? Yay!)

    Abrazo – Martyn x

  4. What a beautiful tribute to your first child – your first dependent. I was in tears as it brought me right back to when I lost my Tucker who was my college dog and moved all over the country with me through so many transitions in my life. She too rapidly declined in her last week of life and I couldn’t bear it. I begged her to let go so I wouldn’t have to make the impossible decision. I knew the sadness I felt was a selfish one as her passing meant she was no longer in pain. My heart aches for you in losing your travel companion, though she will always be with you in spirit. Kiki brought so much to your life. It sounds like she saved you as much as you saved her. Treasure your memories and all that she taught you and honor her for who you are today. Much love. xoxoxoxo

  5. Dear Stevie, what a beautiful story and way to honor Kiki. Tears in my eyes. I feel the love and sharing you had with Kiki and know how intense you will miss her. Best of luck, lots of love from the Netherlands!

  6. Auntie A says:

    Kiki we all loved you very much and shared cherished memories with you. I loved when I’d visit Stevie in the back house how you would announce my arrival, and then always lovingly greet me. I’m so glad my sister had you as a close companion for so many years. Many your eternity be one of peace and no “small wheels”. 🙂

  7. melissa says:

    Tears are streaming down my face right now. I am so sorry she is gone. I love you!

  8. Teri Hogan says:

    Oh Stevie, I am so sad to hear about Kiki, i met
    her years ago when you were still in the SB. You
    wrote her a beautiful tribute. She certainly beat
    the odds with her illness, because she was so loved
    and well taken care of. She had a happy life with
    you, Tree and Soleil, she knew you loved her and
    loved you in return. I know she was your heart Stevie,
    and she will always be there. You gave her an
    amazing life! Kiki the Doggie Nomad! She is at peace
    now. I am sorry for loss of your beloved travelling
    companion and friend. Sending all of you kove and light.
    Teri

  9. Javiera Tarrago says:

    Grande Kiki!!! I will always remember her as a loving and beautiful dog. I’m very sorry for your lost but I’m sure that she’ll live through your hearts. Dogs teach us what is to love freely and purely, and that will always remain in you. Good bye nena hermosa!

  10. Claudia says:

    Stevie, I write this with tears in my eyes. What a wonderful way to honor Kiki and the beautiful friendship you shared. My condolences to you.

  11. nonituyas says:

    No words, Dear one. Only love.

  12. I was sad with the headline, because she was such a beautiful sweetheart. But after reading the story and seeing you in the photo I was kind of hyperventilating and couldn’t quite catch my breath. That kind of love is a real gift, and the whole world benefits from it. This life-dance of full-throttle unencumbered love and at the same time practicing being at peace with “what is” – it doesn’t get any better than that. Love to all of you, Dave

  13. Caroline Eastburn says:

    My condolences for your loss. Thank you for your beautiful tribute. RIP dear, sweet Kiki.

  14. Lots of love to you Stevie. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Xo

  15. Juie Belknap says:

    Hey Stevie,
    I am so sorry about Kiki. I know exactly what you are going through:( You did the right thing. You were such a great Mom to her, she was an amazing dog. RIP Kiki.

    Love,
    Julie

  16. Anonymous says:

    You’ve build a beautiful tapestry together. Yes, what has been before and will be again, but until then pull from your own heart her love. She’s forever with you. I wish I could wrap you up in a warm hug while the sadness of her passing fades into beautiful realizations of love. She has made you bloom into the most extraordinary woman Stevie, I’m so grateful for her life, love and loyalty. You are left to shine on, for her. That’s the true test of life. Can you take the lessons and learn from the? Grow?

    I love you, I love you, I love you.

  17. DeborahandDonaldPH says:

    You made my heart cry and sing. I just gave my little dog a hug, for Kiki.
    Rest in Peace Kiki doggie 🙂

  18. You have a wonderful angel now that will look after you always!

  19. Jim and I were so saddened to see your facebook post this morning. Although we never met her, Kiki became a part of our lives through your blog and endless adorable photos of her. It was obvious she loved nothing better than to be traversing the world with you, her family. What a lovely gift you gave eachother, the gift of truly unconditional love. Thinking of you all during this terrible time, but know she is smiling down at you from doggy heaven.! XOXO

  20. Justin gilbert says:

    I’m truly sad for your lost. You gave Kiki the best life possible. I am honored to have known her for the entire time you had her. Her doggy spirit will look over you guys forevere.

  21. Norbert says:

    I cried reading about your journey with Kiki. Thank you for sharing. And may her spirit continue to touch people thru your kind words and actions.

  22. Cathy Alexander says:

    Hi Stevie, Tree & Soleil! Sorry for such a great lost to all of you! May Kiki rest in peace with his other friends! Don’t worry we will all be together again, even our pets will be with us! Only be in God’s time, so we wait patiently! I’ve been through this loss many times and it don’t get any easier! Loved them all as I’m sure you do!!!!! Take Care Lots Of Love Cathy Alexander :'( <3 RIP KiKi!!!!!

  23. Those darn dogs get better each year, but then they eventually leave us – and it sure does hurt. Thank you for sharing her.

  24. Bless her heart. So beautiful. I’m sorry about her passing, but so happy you gave her such a beautiful life an she to you.

  25. cheryll says:

    I LOVED that dog! I loved how she made herself at home when she was here, how she talked to us when we came into the room, even how she gave you the cold shoulder in the car when you came home from the grand canyon! She spoke human and she had great hair! My heart aches for you for your loss. I am happy that you are able put your words to paper to express your love and I hope it is cathartic. You have a giant heart, Stevie. Kiki will always be with you.

  26. Anonymous says:

    Wonderful story

  27. Anonymous says:

    Touching story and KiKi had a loving wonderful adventurous life.

  28. Aunt Debby and Uncle Barry says:

    Dearest Stevie, Tree and Sol. Our family is so sad to hear about Kiki leaving you. You all shared an amazing life together. She was your companion and Teacher. I know she will be missed.
    In the words of Chief Seattle

    There is no Death…. Only a change of Worlds!

    Kiki is exploring a Brave new World!

  29. Cat Severson says:

    How is Sol doing with the loss of her friend?

  30. Ron Hunt says:

    I’m soooo sorry for y’all’s loss. Farewell Kiki

  31. Lisa Labon says:

    so very sorry. Sending you and Stevie hugs.

  32. Chrissie says:

    Beautiful tribute. So so sorry.

  33. Eleanor Kelly says:

    My heart is breaking for you. May she rest in peace.

  34. Oh Im so sorry Stevie. I know she was a huge part of the family.

  35. Melissa Monroe says:

    I’m so sad and So so sorry. She was such a wonderful doggie.. Hang in there.

  36. Victoria Palmer says:

    Oh no, so so sorry to hear. My heart breaks for you.

  37. Chris Shinpaugh says:

    So sad Stevie, Love you.

  38. Sophia Flores-Villa says:

    A beautiful story for a beautiful”one of a kind” KiKi! You can be sure that Kiki was blessed with a wonderful life because of you and Tree and Sol…
    The celebration of Kiki’s memories will forever live on….

  39. You guys Gave her the best life, and she lived to love you. She rest in your hearts now as she plays in heaven watching over you.
    Much love

  40. RIP Kiki..

  41. Meridith says:

    Just balled my eyes out in public, and told all the people around me to read it who of which 2 are crying….just a coffee house full of touched hearts. beautiful story for a beautiful life. so sorry for your loss!

  42. Liz Ancona says:

    My heart dropped when I read this Stevie. I am so very sorry. Kiki won me over every time I had the honor to be in her presence. She was one of a kind. She has made her journey to the rainbow bridge until you meet again. Sending you all hugs.

  43. Nooooooooo…. our deepest and heartwarming thoughts are with you guys on this terrible loss.

  44. Kathy Mueller-Hansen says:

    Such a special friendship and love you have shared R.I.P. Kiki

  45. Michelle Cliffe says:

    So sorry for your loss.

  46. John Rich says:

    So sorry for your loss.

  47. Sonia Kaz says:

    Dogs have only one fault- they never live long enoug

  48. Courtney Lynch says:

    Sorry for your loss, keeping you all in my thoughts.

  49. Paula Dear says:

    Hey all, so sorry to hear your sad news. We haven’t met (yet?) but we follow your blog and also really know just how much you can love your pet as an equal part of your family. Kiki had some great adventures with you, better than being stuck at home while everyone goes to work and school eh? Thinking of you.

  50. Rachael Cornett Kraft says:

    I am so sorry. A loving dog that grew old with you is a beautiful gift.

  51. Audrey Kranz says:

    I am so sad to read this and so sad for you all. Even so, the pictures made me smile and laugh through teary eyes as I read your letter. Nothing better than a life lived loving fully and being fully loved. Thinking of your family and sending peace and love to you.

  52. Carol Hiller says:

    It’s so hard to say goodbye. So so sorry. Sending all lots of love

  53. Tamara Suarez says:

    Lo siento mucho!

  54. Vanessa Diaz says:

    lo siento Stevie,rest in peace Kiki

  55. John Mason says:

    So sorry for your loss! Dogs are true unconditional love. The cruel joke is that we only get about 15 years with them in this life if we’re lucky.
    http://dogseverything.com/…/rainbow_bridge_20100524…

  56. Cindy Potter-Sherman says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss Stevie. Kiki was beautiful inside and out …Kinda your soul mate. I wish you and her peace at this time…

  57. Bret Rayburn says:

    I’m so sorry Stevie.

  58. Dogs are family.

  59. R.I.P Kiki up Stevie!

  60. April Huneycutt says:

    Love and miss you Gus May Kiki RIP in doggie heaven

  61. Erica Victorson says:

    Losing a beloved pet leaves such a gut wrenching void that nothing but time will heal. Sorry

  62. Julie Angelone Williams says:

    I’m so sorry Stevie. I hope you can find peace in your heart.

  63. Erica Van Boheemen says:

    I am so sorry for your loss.

  64. Fernando Rivero says:

    So sorry for your loss. We love our dogs and can empathize with the loss you must feel. Lo siento.

  65. Hailee Jay says:

    Big hugs!!!!!

  66. Keri Rogers Paluska says:

    I’m sorry.

  67. Valerie Anderson says:

    I am so sorry. I am glad I got to meet her. Hugs. Sending light and love your way.

  68. Rachel Woods says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. She was such a big part of Sprinter Life and in turn, a big part of all our lives. Kiki touched each one of us as we followed her journeys and adventures. She will be missed.

  69. SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS… We LOVE ANIMALS, We just Lost Our LEWIS ( A Cat) , And have Been HEART BROKEN !!! Time Still Has Not Healed Our Heart , PRAYERS TO YOU , “”THEY ARE FAMILY “” ……HEART FELT …

  70. Hillary Miller says:

    Sending you guys peace at this difficult time. What a truly amazing life Kiki had with you, full of love and adventure.

  71. Aunt Candy says:

    Holding you all in my heart sweet ones and sending Kiki a rainbow to help lift him on his next journey . Love you all

  72. Aman Anderson says:

    This is so sad! Praying for you all!

  73. Mona Eisenhauer says:

    I am so sorry! The letter is beautiful. I could not stop crying

  74. Tim Wilson says:

    Oh so sorry! Peace!

  75. Celena Perkins says:

    Bless her heart sweet Kiki luver…

  76. Remember visiting with you at Cyndi’s when you first adopted Kiki and I knew you had found pure, childlike joy….The look in you eye was one of such adoration!!
    My mom’s Birthday was May 29th and I will always remember the look in you eyes and the joy of Mom and Kiki on this day.
    Stevie you are extraordinary.
    You writing draws such intense emotion and reflection, your gifts just keep getting better!!
    We are all blessed with each other and you always bring that to light even in my darkest times.
    Thanks to you I’m becoming like Kiki, seeking love wherever it may be!! Scratch mah belly!!
    Carry-on
    _WILLY_

  77. Anonymous says:

    Stevie,

    This is heart breaking. I am crying reading this.
    I am sorry for your loss.
    We love you Kiki.

    April Y.

  78. Chuck Lane says:

    So sad, Very sorry

  79. Shauna Stancoff says:

    Ah much LOVE to your family

  80. Dave Leher says:

    Yup!!! Much love!! everything is connected! love is a small world! So happy this loving dog touched so many people! But most importantly you! Keep it real my friend!!

  81. Natazha says:

    So sorry for your loss… Much love to Kiki…

  82. Jan Meyer says:

    Such a beautiful tribute to a remarkable companion – much love to you guys.

  83. Michael Upchurch says:

    I’m sorry for your loss, Rip Kiki

  84. Leah Markham says:

    so sorry for you guys kiki was a gorgeous thing, and i know you will miss her much! x

  85. Isabela says:

    I`m sorry for your loss guys…

  86. Shirley Moretti says:

    Sooo sorry to read this, great dog, luved by many & had an awesome life!!! Sorry for all’s loss.

  87. Shaun Galanos says:

    I’ll always remember Kiki fondly. I’m so very sorry for your loss, she was an incredible dog, and a true reflection of her amazing owners.

  88. Chuck Seaman says:

    My sympathy to you all. Dogs and pets become family

  89. Cat Hiltgen says:

    Oh NOoooooo! What happened?! So sad

  90. Minh Pham says:

    Sending hugs….dogs are the best.

  91. Cathy Fanandakis Alexander says:

    Sorry for your RIP Kiki Always in our thoughts & prayers! I know how you feel they are part of our family

  92. Joanna Onno says:

    So sorry for Kiki leaving earth. She was blessed with so much love and adventure and based on ur posts looks like she was a trooper till the end. RIP beautiful one.

  93. What a beautiful gift she was. I am grateful I met her. Sending you a hug filled with love and light! Nevia

  94. Kobus Mans says:

    sorry guys.

  95. Patricia Zevallos says:

    ohhh… hermosa kiki

  96. Jonathan Constantine says:

    our “Kikki” is called “Mia”, they are like sisters, ours is now about 6 yrs old, she adopted us ……

  97. Brian Thomen says:

    OMG!!! I’m so sorry for her passing, KIKI was the best dog I have ever known. She was so kind and loving and very protective. An adventurous dog and a seasoned traveler is putting it mildly, she will be missed by all and will always be remembered. Love You Guy’s

  98. Leo Augustine Levich says:

    NOOOOOOOOO!!! What a SWEET SWEET pup…. That’s sad news Stevie! I hope she didn’t suffer any & passed on in peace… My condolences. Hope you & yours are dealing well w/ your loss… Life goes on, right? My Rooney says “Keep your chin up!” love you Sweetie!

  99. Erin Day says:

    So very sorry for your loss luv… She will always be with you. I promise she will come to you in dreams. My Po was at my side in most dreams for years after his passing, now he visits more sporadically ..all my love sweetheart

  100. Richard Hallman says:

    So sorry — Kiki your unconditional love lives on… ;(

  101. Mike Dingman says:

    every family should have at least one dog like her they aren’t a pet they are family they give more than they ever take, I’ve been lucky to have had a couple wonderful four legged family members, they leave a very profound foot print on your life

  102. Gregg X Frazier says:

    That is terribly sad, but your blog was absolutely beautiful! I love all the photos of Kiki’s world travels!

  103. mysteryflowers says:

    Although I never met Kiki, I felt as if I knew her, following the Sprinter Life story throughout the years. She was a beautiful dog and a beautiful spirit. I’m sorry for your loss, but happy you got to share so many memories with her.

  104. Mike Lee says:

    Sorry for your loss

  105. Carolyn Schulman says:

    Our little furry friends are such a large part of our family. They bring us joy and comfort and we miss them so much when they are gone. I understand and I wish all of you well. I love you, Grandma

  106. Tara Palmer Benoit says:

    So sorry:( Hope you can get some peace knowing she had the best life possible. We should all be that lucky:)

  107. Ann Zimmerman says:

    I’m so sorry… I know how much she meant to you. We’ll be thinking of you all

  108. Lair Davis says:

    1st ballot entry in the Doggie Hall of Fame.

  109. Liz (Lis) says:

    Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww 🙁
    I knew something was up when Tree’s last post “Chillin in BA” was so clipped.
    Just remember the story, Stevie, with the little boy and the vet and the dog: “People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life — like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right? … The six-year-old continued, ‘Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.'”
    It’s okay.
    Hugs
    lizD

  110. Lo siento mucho chicos, k noticia tan triste, Kiki was the best, so mellow, so sweet…. kiki tuvo una vida espectacular al lado de uds…. llena de amor y cariño, she had the best life ever….. very sorry for your loss

  111. Tanya Shuman says:

    I am so very sorry! I can understand your sadness. You now have a guardian angel who will always be watching out for you and your Family. Always present but not in physical form.

  112. Gian Marco says:

    Desde el dia que las conosi , supe que existia mucha buena onda entre tu y KIKI ,
    Muchisimo amor y sobretodo compañerismo.
    Pesame , cariño y valor .

    Gian Marco

  113. She had a beautiful life. You should be so proud.

  114. What a beautiful way to honor a sweet special little 4 legged person. My heart breaks for you and at the same time is filled with joy at the life you gave Kiki and the life she gave you. I know she will always be with you,watching over Sol and the family. You are in my heart and prayers and thoughts

  115. We love you guys.

  116. Really touching tribute Stevie, thanks for sharing and I am sorry you lost such a precious friend. My best thoughts to you.

  117. Aaron Lemke says:

    Sorry to hear

  118. A beautiful tribute… And to speak so passionately shows everlasting Love for Kiki.

  119. Louisa BQ Baxter says:

    Oh Stevie x

  120. George Howorth says:

    So sorry to hear Stevie, I will miss seeing her pondering round the house and sleeping next to me aww bless her RIP kikster!

  121. Mike Kelley says:

    So sorry for your loss Stevie. She was such a sweet girl! Eleanor and I send our love.

  122. Sam Elias says:

    Sorry guys.

  123. Stephanie "Fwen" Tan says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about Kiki she was so sweet and will be missed. Hope you all are ok and again so sorry for your loss

  124. I’m sorry for your loss. What a sweet face she has! And never a more well traveled dog.

  125. Jun Ko Dowds says:

    Oh no… I am sorry Stevie. She was the happiest doggie to have you guys as her family. Love and hug

  126. Elizabeth Beaumont says:

    ooohh it is hard to farewell friends

  127. Paula Angrisani says:

    Que triste, estoy muy triste con la notícia. Kiki vai deixar saudades.

  128. Ok… finally I got through the letter … needed eye size window washers… and felt soooo much of the awesome love!! Can’t imagine the day to let Tigg go and slowly the other two dogs are getting in me just as deep. I too try to rescue ALLL of them but have to stop at three… that is a lot for the road eh?! I send you a ton of laughter at every funny thing you remember and a smile when there are tears recognizing the gift she is still. Sky hugs!

  129. Paula Stepp says:

    Went thru this with my scotties..my daughter expressed it best as she was crying grief and feeling graceful bliss at the sametime of miracle of the journey of life / death as we shared their passing conscious moments..,

  130. Awe, Kiki, she was such a beautiful dog. My condolences….

  131. Aunt Debby says:

    Dearest Stevie, Tree and Sol. Our family is so sad to hear about Kiki leaving you. You all shared an amazing life together. She was your companion and Teacher. I know she will be missed.
    In the words of Chief Seattle

    There is no Death…. Only a change of Worlds!

    Kiki is exploring a Brave new World!

  132. Heather Vilano Heyert says:

    So sorry!

  133. De hecho el mio fue uno de los corazones que tocó… Kiki, si existe un paraíso y otra vida para ti, no me cabe duda de que tendrás un lugar demasiado importante en él… Buen viaje!!

  134. Dee Dee says:

    So sorry for your loss!

  135. Perla May says:

    Kiki was sooooo lucky to have you as her mama! Sending buckets of Love. xxxoo

  136. Liz Tomkins says:

    awwww… so sorry to hear that guys. I didn’t know she was sick. Lucky dog to have you all in her life. The most well travelled dog on the planet.

  137. We are very sad for you guys and so sorry that you lost such a great friend and family member.

  138. Anonymous says:

    Your sweet, endearing letter to Kiki has AGAIN brought me to tears !! RIP beautiful !!

  139. Emily Sigler says:

    So sorry. I love that bumper sticker about our pets… ‘who saved who’… so true.

  140. Paul Riek says:

    Sorry for your loss

  141. Chad and Emily says:

    Kiki! She’s out there somewhere cruising around in an eternal Sprinter adventure. Sorry for you guys’ loss

  142. Sara Gepp says:

    Kiki you were such a good neighbor

  143. Karen Guancione says:

    Bon voyage Kiki

  144. Tanya Diaz says:

    I am so sorry for you having to go through this, I’ve been there, and it was one of the hardest things ever. Kiki was such a special dog, and you were her special humans. I know she brought you such love and strength in life and I send you the same. I’m glad she was able to be such a badass travel companion for as long as she could enjoy the adventure! Un abrazote fuerte!

  145. Chris Smooth says:

    Blessing to you guys and very best wishes… We hope you find comfort in knowing Kiki is in a good place! All our love

  146. So sorry for your lost…. She was a very special dog…. The little time when I meet her in Punta de Mita, she was really special…. I’m so sorry for this… My condolences for you guys…!!

  147. sorry family!

  148. Jason Lightfoot says:

    Just made a grown man cry, what an amazing tribute!!!

  149. Micki Mallory says:

    So sorry guys:(

  150. Mauricio says:

    Hummmm….. k noticia tan triste….. Kiki era 1 perrita super dulce…. tranquila, amigable… lo siento mucho…

  151. Gian Marco says:

    Sabemos como la querias , te mandamos un buen cariñio de familia

  152. Sarah Leith Bahn says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s so hard to loose our furry babies. I only met Kikki once, but she charmed me immediately. My thoughts are with you guys.

  153. Tony Laguna says:

    I remember when she used to come to my apt, she’d walk right thru the old torn screen door & hangout til I gave her a treat, she will be missed.

  154. Fer Femenias says:

    un saludo y un prazer kiki

  155. Oh Stevie my heart breaks for you. I know how much she meant to you and I loved meeting her when I came to visit you in Venice.

  156. Matias Moreira says:

    Fuerza amigos!! Lo q realmente interesa ya quedo en ustedes, y en la misma Kiki tambien. Fueron muy buenos companeros!! Abrazos!

  157. What a loving and soulful tribute to a dear friend…
    Angels come in many guises – sometimes they crash into our lives and leave on a flutter. Yet sometimes, they find us, when we need them most, but realise it the least. They stay by our sides and in our hearts forever. Take solace that as Kiki to you, you Stevie were an angel to Kiki.
    Wishing you and your family all the very best xx

  158. ♥ A beautiful tribute ♥

  159. Bless you all. I know that someday I’ll be back to this page to find comfort and inspiration. It is heartbreaking that we have to outlive our dogs most of the time.

  160. erin e day says:

    Oh Stevie, Im so sorry and Im so happy that you and Kiki shared/share such an amazing love….how blessed you both are

  161. Brenton & Shannon says:

    What a beautiful post. I’m sure that was a difficult day but it sounds like she went peacefully in your arms, which really sounds like the best way to go. Kiki had a beautiful life and we’re glad to hear that she passed beautifully also. We should all be so lucky to have lived and died in the same way!

  162. Anonymous says:

    Commenting again… ’cause I just need to. Have you thought about maybe a tattoo to honor her? Could be so cool, if done right! — p.s. Really glad you were back from Mexico too…. I DO believe she waited for you. ♥

    • It’s funny that you should say that, I very much DO want a tattoo to honor Kiki. Just have to find the right image/words 🙂

      • Anonymous says:

        I have no doubt you WILL find the image/words….. !! ** I know you can also get tattooed with the ashes of your loved one, the ashes are infused with the ink. Not sure, how pet ashes work, however?? Some think it’s morbid, but I feel it’s so truely powerful and beautiful. Call me weird. Can’t wait to see what you’re creative mind conjures up. Kiki will be smiling… BIG TIME !! ♥

  163. Anonymous says:

    So very sorry for your loss of a best friend….

  164. Michelle Hamilton says:

    The most beautiful story ever! What a journey love!!! I cried thru your entire story….unbelievable bond and love….im.speechless, so forgive me….
    love u so much Stevie!!!

  165. Paul and Noelle says:

    Guys,

    Sorry to hear of Kikis passing. We were the Irish couple that you met in Playa el Tunco, El Salvador over 3 years ago when ye got married.

    We still remember Kiki, she was such a gentle and beautiful dog. RIP
    Best Regards
    Paul and Noelle Dempsey

    • Paul and Noelle. I 100% remember you, and I remember taking a picture with you just before you left. I apologize for it taking so long for me to reply to you. I hope this message finds you. I’ve been missing Kiki so much lately, and I visited this post again to see pictures and read comments, and found that I had missed yours. What a pleasure to hear from you again. THANK YOU for remembering sweet Kiki. I hope our paths cross again someday.

      xoxoxo

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